We seem to be meandering back to the beginning where my ear cancer is concerned. There had been some talk about seeking treatment in Jakarta, but that has kind of fizzled. There was a suggestion as well that I seek treatment with a well-publicized cancer specialist in Singapore, but I've rejected that option as being far outside my budget. Also, for me, my ear, as fond of it as I am, just does not rate such royal concern. So I am leaning (or re-leaning) toward the place that is closest and probably cheapest, that being the less than beautiful Kasih Ibu Hospital, given that I've already met with the doctor there and I'm already on the hospital record there.
In the meantime, however, I'm having difficulty with taking the whole ear thing very seriously given that MS is causing me a whole lot more trouble in the form of relentless daily pain in my right neck, shoulder, and arm (whereas the ear barely hurts at all). I can't even picture just now traveling even as far as nearby Kasih Ibu as long as this pain persists, for motorbike transport becomes especially uncomfortable. MS seems to be having a particularly active period, with my feet having gone more numb than usual and a weird tingling yesterday throughout my left leg and right up to my ass region. What's an ear compared to this? I'd kind of rather have the entire right side of my body removed. Now that might be something best left to a specialist in Singapore!
It's a funny thought that if I felt better, I'd be more likely to get my ear cut off. I guess that when one is not feeling well to begin with, he feels especially unwilling to make himself feel even worse. But "If only I felt better, I'd cut off my ear" sounds weird, doesn't it? What a wonderful day it will be when I finally feel good enough to cut off my ear.
But that's kind of the feeling I'm having. I don't want to deal with just one more thing. "I'll think about it tomorrow," as Scarlett O'Hara said. The happy news is that basal cell carcinomas are only very slowly progressive, and generally do not spread outside the originally involved area.
The sad news is what has become "happy" news these days.
In the meantime, however, I'm having difficulty with taking the whole ear thing very seriously given that MS is causing me a whole lot more trouble in the form of relentless daily pain in my right neck, shoulder, and arm (whereas the ear barely hurts at all). I can't even picture just now traveling even as far as nearby Kasih Ibu as long as this pain persists, for motorbike transport becomes especially uncomfortable. MS seems to be having a particularly active period, with my feet having gone more numb than usual and a weird tingling yesterday throughout my left leg and right up to my ass region. What's an ear compared to this? I'd kind of rather have the entire right side of my body removed. Now that might be something best left to a specialist in Singapore!
It's a funny thought that if I felt better, I'd be more likely to get my ear cut off. I guess that when one is not feeling well to begin with, he feels especially unwilling to make himself feel even worse. But "If only I felt better, I'd cut off my ear" sounds weird, doesn't it? What a wonderful day it will be when I finally feel good enough to cut off my ear.
But that's kind of the feeling I'm having. I don't want to deal with just one more thing. "I'll think about it tomorrow," as Scarlett O'Hara said. The happy news is that basal cell carcinomas are only very slowly progressive, and generally do not spread outside the originally involved area.
The sad news is what has become "happy" news these days.
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